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I had too-much for the video’s writeup, so I place it here:

it took over 20 years, but I finally-learned how to make some peace with the past and present so I can be better in the future {and, without anything related to your philosophy/business}

reader, if you were also forced a drug within a hospital – that was rape

you are not going to hear that word from within the system;
for me, I needed to deal with the experience knowing that term

let your mind see it not as care or treatment, for it was mistreatment and not caring

know it as a correct word and how it affected not a ‘symptom’; I called it more than what others in the abusive-system claim … and that I can believe myself.

in hospital prisons, I did not receive “care” or anything truly “in my best interest”; those are wordings from ones who deny the action of abuse; there are plenty...

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MORE “Less Of Me”

7-9 January, 2022: On the 28th last-month is when I first heard of Loretta Lynn singing “Less Of Me” in a video. Although country-music, I liked the tune and wanted to have more of it {but less of me}.

So, since it was unfamiliar, I figured I had the first rendition and not a cover. Looking into information, we find that Glen Campbell’s considered the first noted-singer to give music to the words in 1965. The lyrics are a poem from Mr. Edgar A. Guest {1881-1959}. It “was published around 1909, whereupon it became very popular and was often quoted in magazines/journals and included in devotional calendars. Glen called the song ‘Less of Me’ and Guest called the wording ‘A Creed’.”


Let me be a little kinder,
Let me be a little blinder
To the faults of those around me,
Let me praise a little more;
Let me be, when I am weary
Just a little bit more cheery,
Let me serve a little...

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Nerds are cool.
I speak of people, as well as the classic {Willy} Wonka candies.

Books are cool.
All those lines that make letters which form sentences
that form, hopefully, coherent statements that progress
in telling a story or idea? Writing can be awesome!

I am glad there are more and more decent books available to
help expose the frequent-wrongs that are psychiatry/social work.

I am a bookworm and now, free of psychiatry and brain-debilitating
psychiatric drugs {anticonvulsants}, am able to understand my lot
better … and, eventually create my own!

Here’s some from the collection I have …

  • Psychoheresy
  • Your Drug May Be Your Problem {Breggin}
  • Medication Madness
  • Making Us Crazy
  • Auntie Psychiatry {anonymous}

Be a bookworm of info critical of psychiatry. You may be saving your life.

Of great interest to me, definitely, is how I have never read a full one of those books...

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“9/11” - time to party?

So, we are at the 20th anniversary of the truthfulness-still-debated-by-some hijackings of jets that crashed into various buildings in New York City and another into the Pentagon-building.

I heard in a talk this morning on the WHYY news-radio how this is a day of rememberance … and that there were going to be “celebrations” today.
Was that a slip of the tongue? There were no attempts to correct, so I doubt it; we have just really-lame writing/preperation and another example {thought smaller} of why I do not care for the broadcasting of news.

Seriously, do you believe there will not-be any people enjoying foods and music excessively? Of course, there will be folks wanting to have company/
something to do during the pandemic-situation. Combined with the day being on a weekend, it will be seen by many as a second “Labor Day” and
a mere time to “party”.

I had no interest in a gathering...

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So, it is “Christmas in July” as some say {though I do not know anything about the reason for it}. This was almost-ready last winter and I do not want to wait months for it to be here.

It was a wintery-time of a year, but I do not have this written and cannot recall the exact-day I wrote this in a group at the non-“Helping Hand”.

A task asked of us was to take the word SNOWMAN and make a poem
where each line began with the first letter of the word.

I do remember just doing it rather-quickly and reading it outloud.
Caseworker Brandi said something of surprise/approval, but I forget
exactly what … but she seemed to like it.

Stand around and
Notice me!
Our time together wanes.
Warmth is nice …
Month is not …
And soon, I’ll be
Nearer to rain.

{so, warmth of people enjoying snowman-me is nice; the warmth of the month is not, for I will become the appearance of rain}

Oh, I think...

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The psychiatric system, called by the common euphemism “mental health
system” is not and never was a system of health or healing - it’s a system of social control based not on ‘medical science’ but on what shock survivor/activist/author Leonard Roy Frank aptly calls psychiatry’s 3Fs:
force, fear and fraud.


Psychiatrists routinely label dissident citizens with pseudo-medical
diagnoses as if they are real diseases or brain disorders. As dissident
psychiatrist Thomas Szasz and other critics have frequently explained,
“mental illness” is a myth, a metaphor for common personal crises or
emotional problems in our lives. Psychiatry, particularly the American
Psychiatric Association, has illogically pathologized them as “mental
disorders”. In medicine, “cellular pathology” is the only criterion of disease,
yet psychiatry has never proved the existence of such pathology, never...

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                              SPECTRAL DYNAMICS
                               Richard "Dick" McNutt

Abstract. Let α̃ be an equation. It was Klein who first asked whether positive, conditionally holomorphic random variables can be classified. We show that y(ΨΣ,T )>y. The groundbreaking work of R. Monge on solvable sets was a major advance. On the other hand, it is not yet known whether is Turing, although [39] does address the issue of existence.

  1. Introduction

Is it possible to extend ultra-extrinsic, countably covariant, generic equations? The work in [44] did not consider the Γ-Möbius case. This could shed important light on a conjecture of Russell. T. R. Brown [44, 46] improved upon the results of Z. Anderson by deriving Noether scalars. So in [3], the main result was the description of maximal categories. The work in [16] did not consider the ultra-stochastically infinite...

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this is the majority of a 2013 article at

  1. Poor moods are caused by chemical imbalances

These chemical imbalances are profitable for doctors who tell you they have the antidote, the pill that will put your brain back in balance. The problem is, there is no such thing as a chemical imbalance that creates a poor mood. At least there is not one shred of evidence to back this idea.

Put it this way: You lose your job. You feel discouraged. Is the discouragement caused by a chemical imbalance or by your response to this unfortunate event and the perception of an uncertain future? Is the remedy a pill or a new job?

You get into a car wreck. You feel anxious while driving after that. Is the anxiety caused by a chemical imbalance? Is the remedy a pill, or to learn to reconcile the trauma that rests in your mind?


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58 minutes inside the final-hour of the year.

The remnants of this rotten year {actually, not that rotten,
but it is what some people think because of the pandemic
and the extent it made things different to them}.

The following punctuation will be the last thing done at the end of 2020.

There it goes … never again will I be able to put a period in
a sentence in 2020. Oh, my!


feels the same …

Actually, 2021 has been around before …
n’ every day is always a start of a new year

‘tis nothing special {just like psychiatry}

Copyright © 2020-21 Dee Essem/MIND MADE UP

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I would say that, for almost everything, nobody needs to
be pro-psychiatry.

Those who understand their experiences as an event helping them,
it did. They are wrong to recommend it for everybody just like I am
wrong if I say nobody should give it the light of day.

I, however, despise it and will never promote it;
its ways have convinced of its harm and inefficacy.

That does not make me “wrong”.
Loving it does not make you “right”.

Wanting to be led by psychiatry is a lifestyle for some.
It is what many believe they need to survive. It is not
the answer for all and you may have too-much faith in
whatever it is that it does — while not being aware of
the enormous-amount that it does not.

You may have your own experiences in life about it.
We can tell experiences and let others decide a worth.

So, I am personally against hearing all advice and ideas from anybody in psychiatry or...

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